all i'm saying pretty baby

29 December 2006 @ 01:25 am

in no order, ya'll.

1. talking heads--this must be the place
2. led zeppelin--over the hills and far away
3. tori amos--cornflake girl
4. the who--baba o'reily
5. cat stevens--peace train
6. lou reed--sweet jane
7. nick drake--things behind the sun
8. something corporate--konstantine
9. jack's mannequin--i'm ready
10. the smiths--the boy with the thorn in his side
11. piebald--american hearts
12. pixies--velouria
13. richard hell and the voidoids--blank generation
14. stars--what i'm trying to say
15. sufjan stevens--casimir pulaski day
16. third eye blind--wounded
17. ultimate fakebook--tell me what you want
18. the zombies--time of the season
19. the cure--the lovecats
20. sublime--scarlet begonias (yes, it's a cover.)
21. jimi hendrix--the wind cries mary
22. saves the day--hold
23. pete yorn--closet
24. the hidden cameras--smells like happiness
25. david bowie--life on mars

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17 September 2006 @ 11:44 pm

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okay, well i just wanted to say that TONIGHT i met ANDREW MCMAHON (

) and he like my sweater so much that he took a picture of it with his own camera. He signed my ticket and called me baby. Can I get a heck yes? HECK YESSSS

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ecstatic

Current Music: jack's mannequin

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10 September 2006 @ 03:36 pm

i have decided.

I am going to work on these things this year.

1. being kinder.
          (this also includes having more female friends. i think my kindess is hidden by having to be "one of the guys" all the time.)
2. thinking before i speak/act
          (i'll always say this. i need to stop being an impulsive wreck.)
3. unleashing my inner artist more.
          ( i don't want to lose the creativity that i base my entire life on)
4. being calmer
          (not over-reacting. breathing. contemplating without anger)
5. going beyond loving nathan--LEARNING nathan.
          (i want to spend more time talking to him and working on our communication problems/triumphs.)

if i do these things, I think that by the end of the year I will learn to love myself. (finally)

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contemplative

Current Music: the cure

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31 August 2006 @ 04:20 pm

hm.

why do i make no effort toward getting to know girls as friends? i am envious (and at the same time bored) of those incessantly chatty groups of girls on my hall, in the dining room, in the mall. I just now noticed that I have no social skills for females save the few friends I still have from high school and I'm not exactly sure about how i feel about it either.

just a thought.

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contemplative

Current Music: better than ezra

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22 July 2006 @ 09:48 pm

let's see.

so, i've neglected updating in a big way. i'm going to try and change that.
summer has been very beautiful. very virginia beach, you know? there's something truly characteristic about spending a summer here and I love it because I know soon enough my summers will be where my falls and springs and winters are. that's when i'll be an adult. until then, i will amble around my hometown in my frightfully humid vw golf.
nathan and i went to boston to visit nicole and dinah. it was wonderful. i love traveling with him! it's been said that a compadible couple travels well together and we definitely do that. how stupendous! this picture pretty much sums up our trip.

my other days have consisted of my being a waitress for the first time ever. i like it a lot, i doubt i'll go back to the pet store industry anytime soon. i like leaving work with money in my hand; it makes me feel like working wasn't a complete waste of my time. i'll be back at bridgewater august 23rd. nathan has an apartment! oh joy of joys that 2006-2007 will be.
:)

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loved

Current Music: the album leaf

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12 June 2006 @ 08:04 pm

hmm

had a lovely reunion weekend with nathan.
:D
the dynamic between us is unsurpassable and it's not even a matter of "wanting the comfort back." it's a matter of wanting life to be as it should again.

i'm a waitress now.
being home is pretty good. i'm glad i'm friends with the people i'm friends with. I want to be back at college more than anything, though. life is so much easier when i don't have to drive for hours to see the people i really want to see. i just need to keep myself occupied, i guess. i'm going to boston in july. i have to get over the iowa hurdle first, but then it will be good again.

sigh! i hate mondays.

Current Mood:

lonely

Current Music: hard-fi

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14 May 2006 @ 08:54 am

sdjdfn

update! quickly.
this morning i have to sing for a graduation thing in the morning
today i go to graduation (mainly for eric and to watch symphonic band)
tomorrow is CHORALE tour until the 19th
depending on when i get home on the 19th i might go to the better than ezra concert at home or stay out here for another way.
THEN I AM HOME
but on the 30th i get my wisdom teeth out. soo...i'm really not HOME until june somethingorother. i'm not ready to go home. this is all very very scary. (how much i want to be here)

i should tell you all about camping sometime.
sometime.

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nostalgic

Current Music: stars

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25 April 2006 @ 07:34 am

thank you, zach.

Put itunes (I chose my ipod so I can't cheat) on 'shuffle' and see what it comes up with for each question. Warning: these may not actually make ANY sense.

1. How does the world see you?
Vanessa Calton-White Houses. So, basically, I'm an overemotional, introspective, girl-hating wreck. Yeah, pretty much.

2. Will I have a happy life?
Stars--The First Five Times. This is one of my favorite songs, so I assume I'll be happy and have a lot of sex.

3. What do my friends think of me?
Nightmare of You--I Want To Be Buried In Your Backyard. I guess they all want me, or something. Just kidding..?

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
Sondre Lerche--Suffused With Love I guess?

5. How can I make myself happy?
Weezer--Holiday. I just went to Canada, sheesh. Oh well, guess I have to go on a cruise for my wellbeing.

6. What should I do with my life?
Cat Stevens--Moonshadow. I think I have to be followed by one. And leap and hop on it. And then speak about the loss of my extremeties/senses. I'll be kind of philisophical, albeit crazy.

7. Will I ever have children?
The Boy Least Likely To--Be Gentle With Me. This song sounds like little kids dancing around...so I'll take that as a yes.

8. What is some good advice for me?
The Walkman--Wake Up. Jeez, okay.

9. How will I be remembered?
Patty Smith--The Warrior. Apparently like a chick power anthem from the 80s is remembered.

10. What's my signature dancing song?
Ryan Adams--To Be Young. I could dance in the car to this, but nowhere else.

11. What's my current theme song?
Sleater-Kinney--Wilderness. That could work.

12. What do others think is my current theme song?
Saves the Day--All I'm Losing is Me. Yes, people associate me with Saves the Day, so that works as well.

13. What shall they play at my funeral?
Talking Heads--And She Was. Peppy! Death is peppy, I guess.

14. What type of guy do I like?
Aberfeldy--Something I Must Tell You. That's really accurate. Vocal about the attraction sort of thing. I don't know about the la la la's in the song...I'd rather a guy not do that.

15. How's my love life?
t.A.t.u.--All the Things She Said. ::snicker::

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19 April 2006 @ 10:36 am

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i was very excited to learn that Jack's Mannequin is going on tour this summer and would be in Virginia. Now that I know they're opening for O.A.R. I'm pretty....annoyed. Why can't they headline a smaller, less amplitheaterish show? arrghh...i'll still go, but I WILL leave before the "college band" takes stage.

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12 April 2006 @ 07:30 am

the most accurate test i've ever taken.

the Romantic
Test finished!

you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR.

"I am unique"

Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.

Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value
myself.

Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.

Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy,
I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.

Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being a Four

my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep
level

my ability to establish warm connections with people

admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life

my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor

being unique and being seen as unique by others

having aesthetic sensibilities

being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being a Four

experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair

feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved

feeling guilty when I disappoint people

feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me

expecting too much from myself and life

fearing being abandoned

obsessing over resentments

longing for what I don't have

Fours as Children Often

have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in
original game
s

are very sensitive

feel that they don't fit in

believe they are missing something that other people have

attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.

become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood

feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents'
divorce)

Fours as Parents

help their children become who they really are

support their children's creativity and originality

are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings

are sometimes overly critical or overly protective

are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy

Discover the 9 Types of People

HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

You liked the test? so please RATE it...

but remember! it had only two questions!!! ;-)

You are not completely happy with the result?!

You chose BY

Would you rather have chosen:

AY (EIGHT)

CY (SIX)

BX (NINE)

BZ (FIVE)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 24% on ABC
You scored higher than 58% on XYZ

Link: The Quick and Painless ENNEAGRAM Test written by felk on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

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29 March 2006 @ 10:17 pm

scotch taped

I really spend the majority of my days feeling content with my major/talents/hairdo/sleeping patterns/grades/appearance, but there are moments (in any young woman's life...blah blah blah) where they just feel they come up short and it irks them at least twice a week. Personally, I am irked by both the small, insignificant bump in my nose and the size of my breasts. (PG13!) I'm fine. I'm in proportion. I'm better than in proportion, in fact. I'm much more than flat but much less than a C cup. I think my minor obsession with breasts in general is a result of a. reading too much cosmopolitan before i even hit puberty and b. the whole damn country's obsession with them. I know it doesn't matter, but sometimes I just want to ask whatever deity (if any) is responsible for my breasts what the heck he was thinking. I mean, where are my second glance breasts! Sometimes I just want the retake boobs. Oh well. :)
It's fun to write about petty things like that..it lets me get them off my mind.
I think I'd probably look pretty strange with any other size than my own, but you know how it is. the grass is always greener and the boobs are always back-pain free on the other size.

in other news...i love choir tour. (in a way.) I love it when i'm on it, but it's really tiring. It was really fun being with everyone, though. it's extreme bonding. I really liked the families I stayed with as well--especially lee and mike. young host families are fun. i really like the city of frederick, MD. i might think about living there someday, who knows.

time for sleeping?
who ever will know.

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sleepy

Current Music: smoke--on second thought

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24 March 2006 @ 09:41 am

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if anyone starts to wonder where i am this weekend...i'm on choir tour all around maryland/west VA. ill be back late on sunday of all things and i'm not sure how I feel about this. tell all your friends?

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blah

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19 March 2006 @ 03:46 pm

recap/update/you know it

Canada was an amazing time. It can basically be summed up in a few pictures which will be added soon enough...I hardly have enough time to do my work, let alone update a livejournal.
i've had a series of amazing weeks, though. Spring break was independent/married-type fun that included legally going to bars and trudging uphill in 60 dollar suede boots. I've been working hard, this weekend Brendan came down and Nathan and I spent the whole weekend in Jenny's townhouse talking and drinking. Taylor came by, roommates came in and out, a jug of wine was consumed in 2 hours, chaser was ingested (and worked, mind you). I think my weekend can be summed up by the chipped green nail polish on my right thumb and nowhere else. It was brillant, low-key and hazy.
I thought a few minutes ago about how thrilling being 20 is...it's quaintly acceptable to drink all day long when you can't buy it without a hassle. It's pleasant to drive around at night being older than the freshman...being steps away from having to decide about a future. I hate living in my prime, though. Isn't it all downhill from here? I don't ever want to go out to a thai resturant with a bunch of single thirty-somethings and talk pathetically about Goethe or the scone light fixtures. If this is the time I always wanted to get to--the pseudo independent state where our bodys are beautiful and we only have the beginnings of smile lines--then what the hell is next? gracious.

Current Mood:

indescribable

Current Music: broken social scene

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02 March 2006 @ 03:07 pm

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holy shit, tomorrow i go to alexandria with nathan and then on sunday we leave for canada. sdfljdglj!! yayayyy

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excited

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28 February 2006 @ 04:25 pm

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I really want to know what developmental problem I had in my youth that caused me to be so freaking awkward.

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22 February 2006 @ 08:02 pm

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the go! team is so freaking amazing.

my professor told me today that if i decided to change majors that i would be a "very successful" English major. hot damn :) haha

Current Mood:

mmmm

Current Music: the go! team--huddle formation

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21 February 2006 @ 07:14 pm

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http://kevan.org/johari?name=petshoptype

fill it out. thank youuu

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15 February 2006 @ 07:24 pm

getting through the days.

I'm taking some time to myself before I start in on my obligations again. Yesterday was Valentine's Day. Nathan was incredibly sweet despite my PMS induced bitchiness. I went and saw him in "How To Succeed in Business" and it was wonderful. Very good production. Plus, he looked cute as all get out. Something about seeing him on stage makes me entirely sentimental--I think I fall in love with him even more.

IN other NEWS

The dean's list reception was tonight. Very pleasant. Saw John G. and met this kid named Nathan whom I've seen at a few shows. He told me about some shows this weekend and since I'm busy trying to be sexy and confident I might be social all by lonesome. Hey. If he can do it, right back atcha! (edit: sexy, confident and obviously taken.)

I just don't want to fake it all the time. I think I should be myself and people should accept that. I don't think that everyone needs to be so level-headed and emotionless. I'm a girl. I'm CRAZY. I should be allowed to be a little dejected now and then. sheesh!

almost time for another rehearsal.

Canada countdown:
18 days.

(and THAT's when things will be perfect.)

Current Mood:

envious

Current Music: andrew bird--lull

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12 February 2006 @ 04:43 pm

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things i want right now.

1. taste of thai spring rolls. i would go get them if i had ANY MONEY. (and I hadn't lost/cancelled my check card today, damnit...) I'm seriously about to go through my drawers/bed/luggage for silver coins.

2. to finish my damn light/dark/nothingness paper. i'm rocking it, but i stress myself out over papers. dean's list dean's list dean's list : now i have a reputation.

3. nathan to have free time again. canada is 21 days away. :D

4. to be taking less credits

5. to know what the hell i want to do with my life.

okay. work interlude over.

Current Mood:

stressed:it's the american way

Current Music: pixies--la la love you

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04 February 2006 @ 11:42 am

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i was absolutely floored by brokeback mountain.

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